i dont think anyone reads this anymore but its okay. i just like to write and vent.

its been almost two months into college... and boy, it sure isn't what i expected it to be. i mean there are so many pros&cons and obviously every college is different. if you asked me a year ago if this was where i wanted to be, my answer would be "where's chapman?" so no, it wasn't my top choice.. but do i like it? sure i do. the weather is wonderful (even though it's a total lie to say it's sunny all the time), the people are beautiful (and most of them, nice), and the school is amazing. i miss home though. i miss... real people. i feel like everyone here lives in a bubble. everyone here lives the "rich&famous" life. i want to bring them all to boston. above all, i miss my friends. going to college really makes you realize who your true friends are. i still believe quality is greater than quantity as cliche as that sounds and the quality of my friends are superb. gloria and kathryn will always be my main bitches... not in a degrading way. i love them to death and miss them dearly. i have made a new friend here... well i obviously made more than one but she's special. her name is spencer. we're very alike and basically are always together. i'm glad i met her. she will probably be one of my bridesmaid, after kathryn and gloria.

college is great. i hear this will be the best four years of my life. i intend for it to be. i need to socialize more. i also need sleep. it's 6am. no bueno.

sometimes giving second chances is easier than dealing with the fact that once the trust is gone you could never get it back but you're holding on because you're afraid of being alone so here you are holding on to something that's already gone & don't act like it's the first time you've heard it in this song cause your heart done told you all along.